She called a lot these days.... i don't know why she called... concern!?! bullshit... care? yeah right~!! miss me? could it even be possible? any possible else could be?
i never pick up.... i just know tat if i ever pick it up again... i'll definitely won't give up.. she is the only 1 i will 100% treat her good.... like i should... i love her... i can't give up... i just can't... i dun know how to... i'm now believe in no one else... whatever you say.. that's the only person i will believe..
but now... you won't believe in me anymore.. i'm learning to put you aside... i'm no longer someone to you.. but just shit... you will find me no more... and now i trust no one... i dun even wanna trust anyone.. i dun have a choice... you said EVERYONE has a chance to choose... but i choose you... is this wrong? i choose to love you... is it wrong? i choose to wait for you... is it wrong? yes... i have the right to choose... but the one i choose, will it happen? yes or no?... no right?
so now i since the answer is no... so.. i rather do what i want.. i need not to treat anyone good like how i treat how i use to treat u...
i'm sorry to those who i mistreat before and after... i have no choice.. i know it won't change anything but it won't change better even if i be the old me...
Nat... i really love you... and thanks for loving me...
